What am i doing with my life? I seem to get stuck in a cycle of the normal daily life of going to school and coming back from school. Outings with friends are rare probably because i am not good at planning meetings with friends.

I need, want, hope, wish, desire to break free from this monotony... but how? Ranting doesnt particularly solve this problem well.

Action? Too lazy to actually make a move... well.. then i dont think i have anyone/anything to blame except for myself..

How i wish my life will be like that of a script when i discover that my family is the long lost family member of some royal familu and we'll be whisked off to some secluded and private island.. woow...

stop dreamin and start sleeping!

time 419am

i just finished slogging my work for later and i SHOULD be tired... well my eyes feel tired but mentally i still feel wide wide awake... since its been a while i wrote.. heck lets see what i can squeeze out from my grey matter

its september now n i before i can say holy-crap-time-passes-so-quickly its my second year now in NAFA .

thts fast...

though my work constantly stays at the back of my head.. i dun feel doing work is a drag as compared to the time i was in JC.. memorizing stuff isnt really my cup of tea...

time 425

i juz signed out from friendster and suddenly i feel like i m lackin some... challenge in my life.. there isnt much of an excitement like wat some of my frens experienced in the past n now... true ive had my fair share of it in the past but now my life seems to be revolving around school... its kinda hard to find time to really lets my short hair down... wonder how its like to be in the life of someone who is experiencing excitement right now...

i havent been posting entries of any sort for QUITE awhile, well maybe i'm just getting bored of this blog thing... but come to think of it, sometimes just typing things out can be a rather unique way of destressing.

anyway.. i have something to confess.. i m in awe of my younger bro. things seem to be going right for him every step he takes, be it studies, sports, career and wat have you. compared to him, i seem pretty mediocre.. and thts when i start to think of aspects in which i m doing better.. n in this case.. i think i'm taller than him.. hahaha ok so this might sound pretty dumb but i wish i could be in his shoes n see how he lives his life and maybe bask in his limitless talents for awhile.. hahahah but at the end of the day.. i m who i m and i m quite proud to say that i m still satisfied with the life i'm living now =)

i've had my fair share of ups and down and experienced things that few have (like flying a plane even though it was for a few hours) , i've also loved n currently am still loving =) all in all... life isnt dealing such a lousy card to me after all..

studyin in NAFA is a choice i shld have made in secondary school but if i were to make that choice 4 years ago.. i wouldnt have got to know my bunch of crazy frens of 03s54 and the idea of playing rugby would still have been just an idea.. so i've taken a long route but at least i got to see more scenery along the way =)

here are more random blabberings... i was looking at all those private estates n terraces while driving my gf down to vivo n i was thinking.. HOW THE HELL THOSE PPL MAKE THT TYPE OF MONEY TO STAY AT THT TYPE OF PLACE!? deep down i'm hoping that i'll get a good job next time n have the capacity to open a design company of my own. tht will still be a pipedream for now but its wats keeping me going on strong =)

hmmm... shit.. i shld be doing my homework now.. tata~

HHHEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

my life is a double edged sword

when i'm enjoying it

the enjoyment kills me

=D

i had a very happy birthday cuz my frens took the time to celebrate with me and although some couldnt make it.. i'm still very happy cuz truthfully.. even if only 1 came.. i'll still be contented =D

things juz wasnt staying tht way...

human mind can be such a f******* difficult thing to understand sometimes... juz when u think u had everything in control.. *wham!* u fall into a puddle of shit...

most of the time, woman can cry when they arent happy or when they r feeling very... 委屈... but certainly... it isnt a luxury of men to weep openly... so sometimes i'm shouting out inside of me... if only i had a doppleganger so he knows how i'm feeling and share the pain i feel...

happy birthday to me...

i'm here writing at 247 in the morning and its a few hours more before i hand in my projects.. what does this shows??

it means that i have nothing better to do than to write a blog which i firmly believes only a handful, and i mean less than 5, actually happens to stumble across this blog..

and why am i writing this in the first place??

perhaps i am just hoping to get some attention but its not really going according to plan..

sometimes when i am enjoying myself with activites or hanging out with friends or loved ones.. my mind will start to wander...

'what exactly are we living our life for?'

maybe for those who are very learned they might give answers like 'to find the true meaning to life itself', to leave a mark on people's lives or simply ' just to go through the cycle of life'.

i think i just lost my train of thought... nvm that...

sometimes i have a very strong urge to just... fast forward to my distant future and see whats install for me.. but who knows what will happen when i get there...

some things are certain though..
-ur loved ones will be aged and unfortunately some will move on to the next cycle of life..
-YOU will grow old and time will always ave the upper hand no matter how hard u try to resist it...

okokokokok.. i have no idea what i'm typing... ciao joey

things to ponder..

-why do people tend to press the remote harder when its low on battery?
-why do people laugh till they cry and cry till they laugh??
-why do we have to 'see to believe' when people warn us not to 'believe in everything we see'?

ok..that wasnt alot of things for u people to ponder and yes... i''m sure u people have seen them quite alot of times but it doesnt hurt to read more =)

today was a very packed day... had to go to work then go to my aunt's house and then to a bdae celebration n finally to baby's fren's house for steamboat!

steamboat was good good good and having a choco fondue is like adding the cherry to the icing on the cake.. =D thks jeanette!

happy last semester baby!!! enjoy ur fren's company!!! (o_O) b

works starting to pile... gotta find the motivation to complete them quick...