ytd was really a day well spent!

shout out to my baby.. HAPPY SECOND DAY OF YOUR 18TH YEAR!!

almost everything went according to plan.. the cake, the meal, the present but not the movie cuz we decided tht we will just be spend the money to slp in the theatre for an hour n a half.. so we bought 2 vcds n order take-away mac.. went back home n laughed ourselves silly for an hour n a half.. very well spent!~ hahaha

well.. everyday can be ur bdae if u like baby! less e cake, the shoes n the meal of cuz.. hahahaha

love u baby!~

today can be summed up with the following sentence..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH~

cuz its full of laughter from a crazy gal n senile old man.. =)

excuse fate.. can i have more of such days? thks alot!

currently chattin on the phone with my baby ( time now is o147hr... hello baby! =) )

i didnt bathe!! hahaha well.. juz feel like letting you fans out there know =D

hmmm.. Sat is my baby's birthday! but i still have NO idea how to plan the day man.. oh man.. headache planning for birthdays the first time.. hahaha

today's trainin is tiring as usual.. the shirt is as sweaty as usual.. and it stinks with a capital S.. wuah... 0.0 gotta wear other tee shirt or the shirt i m wearin now with have a permenent odour.. hahahahah

the shoe i did looks a ok.. hahahah approval from my father too.. =D but it looks a tat too simple.. dunnoe wat other designs i shld add onto the shoe.. dilemma.. hahaha

phew... what a tiring training session i had today.. forgot most of the moves we did last time but nvm.. i can always get them back through more n more trainin! gonna be a busy period again..

today went out with baby before tht.. BOY! we sure took alot of pictures!! I AM LOVING IT! but like u said.. time spent with each other always seem to pass by very quickly.. man oh man..gotta slow down the process!! 6 days from now will be baby's birthday!! hope it will be a very memorable one for her!! 18 years old le! can watch M18 liao! hahahh tht means i can pull her to watch those extremely gross n scary horror movies! hahahaahah =x

friends will be leaving singapore for further studies soon.. oh man.. time really pass by juz like tht.. i can still recall the times where we spent muggin for the A's.. the time we went out for outing.. the crappy moments spent in the cafe, lecture halls n tutorial rooms.. hahhahh good old memories to keep.. n i dun think i shld be the most appropriate person to say this.. but i hope we wun forget one another n the memories we had!! =)

ORD SOON LU!!! hahahah so happy.. lookin forward to the day where i dun have to wake up early n report back to camp.. but on the other hand.. i will miss the times i had in the camp.. becuz of the friends i have there... man.. sometimes ORDing also can be quite a sad thing.. cuz after this everyone wil pursue their dreams.. some will work while some will further their studies.. lets juz hope there will be a chance for us to meet n catch up =)

LAUGHING OUT REAL LOUD!! finally! i started to get abit of tann after going for a swim. it's been a long time since i stepped into a swimming pool much less go for a swim, but boy! it really feels good to swim, though the after effects wasnt really nice.. abit of sunburn n an aching old body.. hahaha

wow.. this fews days has been on-and-off for my piggy gal =X and me.. but i think wat my fren told me is right.. no use getting angry over small stuff, only makes things worse.. so THKS FOR THE ADVICE CAI! (dun think there will be a chance tht he reads this.. hahah)

Good days ahead for us baby!!

my baby..

sometimes she makes me angry n pissed.. but i still love her..
sometimes she has unusual requests.. but i still love her..
sometimes she is extremely lazy.. but i still love her..
sometimes she shows me her 'missus' temper.. but i still love her..
sometimes she says wrong things n do wrong things.. but i still love her

BUT BUT BUT!!

she always has a cute look n wanna-pinch-her-cheeks-till-they-bruise kinda face (when she isn angry)
she makes little notes n poems for me with her good usage of chinese =)
she has a very very infectious laughter n laughs at the slightest jokes or dumb action
she CAN cook n do house work~ woo!~
she has a smackable butt.. hahaha
she can sing well!! like me like tht!~ hahahah lalala~
she looks very.. funny when she sleeps.. =X
she always has a way to resolve our squabbles d(o_O)b
she always calls me noob n stupid!! (she even has a song for it)
she has a fetish for finger biting.. =S
she has a hug-me hug-me aura around her.. hahaha
she is rather sensible n mature in her thinking.. well..for most of the time tht is.. hahah
she always gets mistaken for a 14-16 years old.. hahaha good right?
she is my baby!~

dedicated to ms leow kaiwen~ =)

who wants to listen to a blabbering fool talk about how unsecure he feels about himself at this point of time?

No one..

hmmm, looks like i might be suffering from night time depression, if there ever exist such an illness.. hahahh

well..

i think the image i portray in front of people is not the me i am feeling now..

how am i feelin u say?

well.. i feel very...down.. no particular reason.. dun think i will ever wanna talk to people about this because i don't know how to explain it to them.. dun think people will wanna listen too.. lest they start finding me a bother if i keep telling them about such thing..

oh crazy old me..

i hate night time.. its nice onli when its time i sleep cuz i dun have think about anything..

just close my eyes n let the dreams take me away to whatever place they wanna bring me..

I went to the funeral of my father's friend's mum just now. Though i am in no way close to her, i took a look at her sleeping peacefully inside the casket and there was a tinge of sadness. Death is inevitable, that's something everyone knows yet fear. But where do we go after we depart this world?

I am pretty sure that our conscious mind wouldn't shut itself the moment our physical body breathes its last. But where exactly does our..non-physical body (one that controls out thoughts and actions) go? Oh man, thinking of an answer to this question is like asking someone for the exact answer of how the universe started and where is the end?

An inside look to what makes me tick..(written not to offend anyone!!)

people who look down on others
people who direct their anger to innocent friends/relatives or anybody else
people who show no guilt at being damn bloody late
people who talks like they know EVERYTHING under the Sun
people who go overboard when making fun of people
when things arent going my way
when i try and try but still don't seem to be able to yield any result
when its late at night and at the same time people show me attitute (a big nono)
when advice given are not heed
when I am out and suddenly there is a change in plan
when people don't stop irritating others even when told to stop
when people blatantly flaunt their achievements shamelessly

so..are u any of them? if u are keep it up n u will soon be in my hall of 'fame' =)

life is really really short.. one of my friend's dad had a heart attack and had a fall n unfortunately, he passed away.. my deepest condolenses...

life in all it's vibrance n joy is actually very short.. so people.. live life the way u wan it to be n have no regrets!

*applause* finally did the performance.. so glad tht everything went well n congrats to our guys for gettin fourth! it is by no means a small feat cuz they onli started trainin this year n this is their result! all the way guys!! (o_O)b

gonna meet my baby at her workplace tml.. ahahah come to think of it.. i have nvr seen her in jeans before.. gonna take picS of it.. hahahah =P then gonna eat hans after tht.. after this i shall call forth my staunchest determination to not spend my money wastefully!! but it excludes not being able to buy comics cuz to me... it is an essential just as monkey is to a banana.. hahahah

baby is workin already wor.. n so are alot of my friends.. which leaves onli me.. i wanna find a part time also.. but i keep thinkin its hard to fit it into my schedule.. although i think it isnt very hectic or packed at all.. myabe i jus dun have the workin mindset yet? oh man.. thts bad.. gonna be out in the workin world soon.. if i still cant have tht thinkin.. .woe be unto me.. hahahah

currently i m very very very tired.. calf muscle achin.. no reason y also.. maybe its just part n parcel of being old.. hahaha no offense to senior citizens out there.. but i think its just me n my particularly weak body.. hahah *note to self..mus start workin out soon!!*

gonna continue with my game now.. ciao~

if only i can learn to shut my mouth n stop spoiling ppl's mood...
if only i can stop whining
if only i can stop showing my insecurity..
if only i can let ppl noe how much i crave for ppl's company n hate being alone..
if only...

if only things could remain a bed of roses without the thorns pricking us every now and then.. even if there are thorns.. we have to constanly remind ourselves that we muz always overlook the thorns which represent the bad things in life and focus more on the roses, the beautiful and wonderful things that happened in our lives =)

we cant really say life is short because some people actually begrude that things are going too slow but neither can we say it is too long because of 1 important word:unexpectibility. In a short period of maybe 4 days, we have seen the death of two people, one who lived his life to the fullest and another who fought against the bad hand fate dealt to him. everyone noes steve irwin, Australia's famous croc hunter. A wildlife lover who did everything in his power to let the world know more about crocs, snakes and all sorts of fasinating wildlife, but perhaps by the cruellest(if there is such a word) twist of fate, died under the sting of a stingray, something that he was actually trying to let the world know more about.

Another was a boy, who had fought against cancer and slowly enjoying his new found life when a car accident took his new life away. Watching his interview on tv about his outlook on life and how he fought against cancer made me not want to believe that this brave boy was no more...
how unlife life can be at times.. taking away the lives of those who deserved to live long and well but those who ought not to be in this world anymore are living long and well.. perhaps to comfort oneself, we can always say that those undeserving of life will one day get their just desserts.. and those good men who have left us are now in a better place.. one with peace n tranquility..

Goodbye Mr Crocodile Hunter. Goodbye kwang Zhen.

Anger is just a state of mind.. if we can tell our mind to 'cool down' n 'take a step back', we can actually resolve issues without tempers flared n in the worst case, punches delievered. Why this statement you ask? that's because i have nothing conctructive to type.. hahaha

well, time check now 0230hrs.. going back camp for the first half of the day doing i-have-no-idea.. man oh man.. wana taste home cook food!! how long has it been since i last put some home food into the mouth of mine..

duties in camp for the old specs HAVE reduced dramatically which is a good thing given the stuff we had to endure the past months.. phew.. finally taking a breather.. =)

7th month coming!! wow.. seems like yesterday tht we had our first meeting n first meal n first movie (note: 3 different events..) , had our fair share of squabbles n there were times i wanted to kick your butt.. but being e good bf i m.. u were spared the pain! =P hahaha well.. looking forward to spending ur first birthday with me baby.. (o_O)b love ya~