i tried to write a rather crappy but self reflectin entry but decided otherwise cuz' my brain isnt really workin well now.. so this is the substitute for that would-have-been entry

first of all, i think i like the tag of lonely chicken as that kinda suits me, but if i m walkin for too long a time, i will start to think about irrelevant stuff n most of the time, slight depression sets in as i start to pity myself n think 'hey dude.. y are u being such a loner??! goin out with frens n u will more often than not be walkin behind them n listenin to them talk, occasional crackin tht odd cold joke n laughin at it urself? time to wake up ur idea..'

well, i think tht i may look like some patient guy who seldom loses his temper, i will just lose it becuz of some trivial matter.. no idea y.. maybe cuz i m easily pissed with small matter that doesnt seem to be much of an issue..

ah yes.. i like to help ppl with their probs, givin them suggestion to help them with whatever they r facin but when tht shit happens to me, i will be stunned 'oh no.. wat m i gonna to do?!?!' sometimes i think i should just take one step back, look at the situation n think abt wat is the best solution instead of panickin like a pansy..

being the old man i m, i have one favorite past time-----i like to think. think about anything under the sun, moon n stars. but sometimes, i shld just stop thinkin too much n adopt the motto 'just do it' since i onli get to live life once.. yeah.. lets hope i wun forget wat i said the nxt time i start to think excessively =D

i tend to get affected by things said to me, even though it might be said jokingly. y? cuz of the prob in the para above.. i simply like to think alot..a whole lot.. urgh.. its gonna kill me one of these days...

n heres somethin i have to confess.. i tend to get a lil (well..maybe more than tht..) insecure about things, about myself.. no matter how much ppl assure me things r fine.. there will be this naggy feelin at the back of my head tht causes me to feel unsure of myself.. man.. not tht i like for such things to happen.. but hey.. things happen but its up to me to change it or live with it.. hope i m able to do the former..

y m i writing all these crap? no idea.. its just my mind blabberin n my fingers typin the rubbish out

safety massage to all: life tends to drop sh*t on u when u least expect. so, be aware~ (ta ta ta ta....)

peace out.. (o_O) v