well.. talkin on the phone as i m writing this rather.. solemn entry..

if onli i studied well for my A's...
if onli i didnt take my combi in sec sch i would have taken my fav course in poly..
if onli if onli..hell.. if onli i could predict the future then i wun have to think long n hard about wat m i gonna do now..

sometimes i really envy those who have places in uni n poly.. even though it might not be their fav course.. BUT at least they have somethin to show for at the end of their course..

Me? oh yes i have something to show.. an A level cert tht till now i m not sure whether its a full or haf cert becuz of Gp..

n at this point i juz put down the phone..

to continue.. sometimes ppl dun really have to be so pessimistic cuz its really contagious.. now i m left wondering whether i will be able to get into the course tht i lust/desire/hope for.. plan b? tht is to try for the other courses tht i m also interested in.. if not the same level of enthusiasm as my first choice..

a BIG wat if my plan A, B, C all the way to Z fails? well.. think i will have to live off my parents if fates decides to deal me such a lousy schmousy hand..it wun happen.. right???

gonna try playin my game now.. ciao~