All alone in the living room in the morning (1+ am) typing this entry because i feel that i have something deep inside i want to share badly.

I ponder my next sentence at my fingers hover above the keyboard.

Well, i have everything(almost) going for me, happy relationship, good (temp) job, nice family and good friends. Yet, once in a long while, there will be a feeling of emptiness, goalessness, if there is such a word, rising from within. This is the time where i will be asking myself an unanswerable question--- what's my purpose here??

Study? Get a good job? Happy family? Ok.. so what if i do achieve all that? Can i bring all the happiness with me when i pass on to the next phrase of life? If not, then what am i doing all these for? Whether i have a smooth sailing or stumbling blocks filled life next time, i cant sure as hell bring them with me when i go six feet under.

Then why are most people working hard and earning their keep when it really seems that material things are all unimportant if we look at the BIG picture.

Yet there seems to be that one word that will more or less paint a clearer picture--satisfaction.

(Most)People work to get the satisfaction that comes at the end of everu month, seeing their paycheck. With that money, they get a sense of satisfaction when they spend or give allowances to their parents, wives, mistresses, etc...

So it seems all the toiling we go through has a purpose.

And why did i create this entry? To get a sense of satisfaction knowing that i had written a longer than usual entry. =)

take care people and do take the time to sidetrack from all the hectic schedule and enjoy the world.